umbrella affirmations for manifestation (including self-concept) | 888

hello! today, I am posting a list of umbrella affirmations (including self-concept) for manifestation:

"I am a master at manifesting"

"I manifest things so quickly"

"manifestation is so easy for me"

"I have all of the right information"

"everything is (so) wonderful"

"everything is going right"

"everything (always) solves itself"

bonus aff: "I have the most positive mindset"

Birthday Freebies, Discounts, and Coupons (in honour of my birthday~!🎂)

hello! tomorrow (5 October 2023) is my birthday~ (happy birthday to me~)! 🎂 in honour of my birthday, I am posting here a list of birthday freebies, discounts, and coupons! I plan to update this post more over time, so check it again sometime(s) if you want to. happy birthday!

wishing for the world to be filled with love and peace,  ~ Amy Rose. 🌹

*this post contains referral links that offer bonuses/discounts to people who sign-up for the websites/apps listed here with my referral links, and I will earn a bonus per sign-up. thanks!*

ACE Hardware (gardening, tools, etc.)

Baskin Robbins

a free birthday scoop or ice cream cone (meaning ice cream in a cup or in a cone, lol)

Chipotle (Mexican grill)

free chips and guacamole with a $5 purchase

Glamnetic (nails and eyelashes)

they give birthday discounts, 30%-off sitewide! (be aware that not all of their lashes are cruelty-free/vegan-friendly, but they do have vegan-friendly lashes, nail, and accessories) sign up with my referral link & get $15-off of a $50 purchase (I'll receive $15 in points)

Medieval Times

they give birthday discounts on admission prices (current code is "BDAY2023", please don't use this code if it's not actually for a birthday -- I think that proof will be required at admission, anyway)

MoeFlavor

they give 50 birthday points, like Syndrome kawaii store listed below!

(I JUST redeemed 600 points for a $20-off coupon!)

get a $5-off coupon with my referral link!

RedBox

they give a free 1-night rental for birthdays -OR- $2-off of On Demand

So Delicious (non-dairy ice cream)

they give a $1-off birthday coupon (and also a $1-off coupon for signing up)

Starbucks

they give a birthday freebie of a drink or a snack

Swagbucks

they give 55 birthday Swagbucks points (with next gift card redemption)! click here to sign up with my referral link and receive a bonus of 300 SB points (I'll receive 10% of referrees' earnings — to clarify, that doesn't substract from their earnings, it's just 10% of the same amount)!

Syndrome Kawaii Store

they give 50 birthday hearts (points) , like MoeFlavor listed above!

Tarte (makeup)

they give a birthday discount coupon code

UNIQSO (circle lenses, cosplay gear, etc.)

they give 50 birthday points to members' accounts (points can be exchanged for coupons)! click here to sign up with my referral link and receive 15%-off (I'll receive 100 points per each sign-up)

got empathy?

I can empathize with feeling hurt/upset about being called a wrong name that you *really* don't want to be called, because I'm a married young lady who's taken my husband's last name, and I STILL get referred to with the wrong last name in medical situations sometimes, which is really upsetting to me (yes, my last name is LEGALLY changed to my married last name - my insurance is still being updated, though, and I do ask the medical offices to note my correct name). for example: I got a voicemail referring to me with the wrong last name, I called that medical office and clearly stated my correct name, they called me back and left a voicemail STILL referring to me with the wrong last name (same person from the first voicemail), so I called again and talked to them and set it right.

I previously had 3 different last names. 2 were last names that actually belonged to me, the other 1 was, sadly, my previous "legal" last name and was only used in situations where legal names would've been required, but it wasn't my real/ancestral birth last name, and it really bothered me, and I still hate to hear and see it in reference to myself, now even moreso, because I love my husband and my married last name and what it means that I get to have his last name.)

I will say that if the person in the original video's name isn't legally changed yet - or the patient file still shows up with their old name, then the pharmacist was probably just going by what they saw in the patient file, BUT the pharmacist could've been more empathetic toward them ("oh, I didn't know, I just saw what was in the file. I can make a note in the file for you."). I say this as a conservative (I'm not a republican, btw, both the republican and democrat parties are corrupt): I'm so glad I don't watch/follow these "shock and provoke, virtue-signaling, unempathetic, 'get rekt' republicans" anymore. it's not conservativism. I still don't like the anger and lack of empathy. I'm reminded of Lauren Southern's virtue-signaling of "bUt I'm nOt gOiNg tO bE a pRofEssiONaL viCtiM aBoUt iT". it doesn't make you look cool. guess what? human beings have emotions. it's not a crime to vent about stuff that's hurt, bothered, and/or upset you. 

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/WHUQ8mlf8R0

unapologetic.

I am accountable and responsible for my actions. don't call "a mistake" what I call "a calculated decision", don't call "a mistake" what I call "defending myself". does "being unapologetic" mean that I never apologize? no, it does not. and I will NOT apologize for what I stand by, I will NOT apologize for what is not wrong, I will NOT apologize for being myself, for what I believe in, for speaking and standing up for myself and others, for not being silenced (because I won't be silenced), and I will NOT apologize for not "just accepting" abuse, mistreatment, hostility, lies, manipulation, gaslighting, controlling behaviour, projection/displacement, disrespect of boundaries, cyber-stalking, and so on and so forth. I respect myself, I am accountable and responsible for MY actions and MY healing (NOT yours), and I do NOT apologize.

some things about manifestation /// it's not about having "no doubts" and "high vibes"

some things about manifestation

(some of these things are things that I've been saying for years, and I've been noticing other people finally starting to say this kind of stuff, too, lol -- for so long it was "you need to believe, you need to have high vibes", etc., now people are starting to say stuff like what I've been saying for a long time)

• manifestation is not about new age stuff, the law of this or that, the occult, witchcraft, belief without doubts / having no doubts and "high vibes" / being positive all the time
• you don't have to believe, you can just decide (you can even be delusional / "gaslight" yourself in a positive way), you can spam your mind with what you want and reprogram your mind, 
• faith is a combination of belief and decision -- you get to decide what to believe and believe that you can just decide -- we have power through faith, from the creators
• your emotions do not decide your outcome, you don't have to feel positive all the time, you don't have to try to stifle your emotions or get scared and freak out when you experience "negative" emotions, why would you want to listen to something that makes you scared of your own emotions anyone and just causes you to suffer?
• just because you think something or have intrusive thoughts doesn't mean that it's going to manifest or that you're going to "ruin" your manifestation, choose to tell yourself that that wouldn't happen, that doesn't happen, that's not how it works, you literally get to decide your own manifestation rules
• stop accepting limiting teachings of "new age" / occult teachers, "this is how you manifest", "no, this is how you manifest", "like attracts like", "no, like repels like", "no, you have to find your manifestation point between your mind and your heart", "no, you have to do these techniques", "no, you need high vibrations", "you need to be a vibrational match to what you want", "you need to get into the vortex", "you need to get rid of your resistance", "you need to get rid of your limiting beliefs", "you need to let it go", "fear is a self-fulfilling prophecy" (shut up, it is not), "you need to realize that you are 'universal consciousness'", "you need to realize that you are brahma", "you need to clear your karmic debt", "you need to have a kundalini awakening", 'you need to unlock your chakras", etc., etc., etc., and blah-blah-blah.
• lastly, do I personally believe that *literally anything* can be manifested? no. no, I do not. there ARE some things that just cannot be manifested. and there are things that people should just not do / even try to do. (and I'm not talking about the money or job or car, etc., that you might want to manifest.) morals still exist. we all have our own realities, and we share a reality at the same time. just because you get to be in control of your own personal reality doesn't mean that you should treat everyone else like trash or try to manifest evil things.

my mom’s birthday (an appreciation post), plus every mother counts and charity miles

my mom’s birthday is coming up. 😊 it’s on the 4th of April, and we’ve been coming up with some different ideas for a while. one thing I really want to get for her (not that she ever asks for stuff like this, but she deserves it) is a designer bag. and I’ve already decided on one, but I won’t say or show which one just yet, though, lol. (I can update this post in a few days to show stuff, teehee.) I’ll just mention that it’s by the brand MKF (that’s Mia K. Farrow). I’ve already picked out a birthday card for her, too. and my husband agreed with me on the card and the bag that I chose for her. so, fancy-fancy stuff for my mom’s birthday. (update before publishing: got the designer bag and the birthday card for her. 😊) my husband is planning to get her something from the local Thai restaurant that he does deliveries for (he gets to choose some food from there as part of his payment on days that he does deliveries). and my dad is also planning to buy food from there for us to eat at home. as for decorations, I still have some balloons to decorate with, and my dad agreed to look for streamers at the store (we should still have some somewhere there, just in case). another thing that I did for her birthday was to let her choose 2 flowers for me to plant on my island in “Castaway Paradise” (mobile version, I play both the mobile and Xbox versions of the game), and I have a little gameplay video of planting the flowers that I’ll be posting to YouTube soon. (there was a little vintage sewing machine figure that I found on SheIn that she would’ve liked, but I wanted to make sure first whether or not it had that prop 65 warning that sometimes shows on items on SheIn, and it did, so I didn’t get it. I don’t want to give something with toxic chemicals to my mom. there were some other things from SheIn that would’ve been nice to get for her. such as a hat, some arm warmers, and something else? right now, I’m not really sure what it was. I also wanted to get another prayer scarf for her. one that I really liked that I would’ve liked to get for both myself and for her ended up being sold out, but I manifest that it’ll be back soon, lol (I already did that with a designer bag that I wanted and still want - it sold again, but I’m just manifesting for it to come back again, lololol). there were some other scarves that I saw, too, but I really liked that particular one (it’s pink and floral, it’s so cute and dainty). another thing that would have been nice to get for her is a Guatemalan mothering doll (we have ancestral ties to Guatemala — my grandma and great aunt are from there), but they were sold out. I want one for myself, too, lol (I asked my mom to make one for me, maybe I can make one for her, too, at some point — I’m also thinking of crocheting a gift or gifts for her for her birthday). a Guatemalan mothering doll is basically of a mother with her little baby, and she carries her little baby in a sling. I found the dolls through a collaboration with Every Mother Counts and the shop called Luna Zorro. Every Mother Counts is a charity whose mission is to make pregnancy and childbirth safe for every mother. I don’t usually trust charities, but they do have a rating of 100%, and I hope that they truly are legit. I chose to support that charity via Charity Miles, which is a charity app where one can track their exercise and raise money for charity of their choice. if you’d like to sponsor me (the proceeds support Every Mother Counts), the information is listed below.

Charity Miles for Every Mother Counts. I’d be grateful for your support. If you’re in a position to do so, please click here to sponsor me. https://miles.app.link/e/2vkv7Fi2Eyb

last year, I got some painting books for my mom that she wanted, and I wanted to get some flowers for her (I wanted to send my husband some flowers, too, heheh, and I did). my sister sent flowers to her, and my mom was really happy with the gifts that she received. she really loves her family, and that’s what matters to her the most. I’d like to send some flowers to my mom this year. she prefers to receive planted flowers. it’s sad when cut flowers wither, but they can be saved and used in crafts / as decorations (that’s what I’ve done with flowers that my husband has gotten for me). I really like to do nice things for my parents and give them gifts.
happy birthday, Mom! (ahead of time, lol.)

note: I started this post on 30 March 2023, wrote the majority of it on 1 April 2023, and then added some final stuff to it on 2 April 2023, which is when I’m publishing it.

the length of my skirt does not define my character /// on the topics of modesty, style freedom, body image, and self-love

I've always been a modest person, and I still am. I've become more comfortable over the years wearing certain things. I believe in style freedom (within reason - of course, there are still things that I wouldn't wear publicly, and I always make sure that I'm properly covered).

I've also experienced eating disorders for a big portion of my life. (I did start to become more comfortable wearing certain things during part of a very disordered time period, too, like shorts, etc. I also started wearing skirts and then dresses again, too. I'd avoided wearing dresses and skirts for a while, dressing/styling myself boyishly. in another post, I wrote about how I'd internalized negative messages about my body and about femininity.)

I never fully recovered and couldn't fully let it go, I still felt and feel the nostalgia and the sentimentality, there was and is still part of me that misses it - even as my mindset has changed so much over the years. there were times over even the past few years where I would be restricting again on-and-off or engaging in other behaviours (and it's not that I didn't believe in or want to be healthy, I did and do, and I've already known about health/nutrition/fitness for a long time, but it's a combination of wanting both to be healthy/strong and to continue holding onto the disorder - I just want to clarify that I don't always think about this stuff, but sometimes it does still come up).

but I've realized this year, in dealing with certain health concerns, I can't do that again, I can't restrict my intake again, etc. (I still experience the nostalgia stuff, mentality stuff, the urge to engage in disordered stuff, etc.) my intake has already been pretty limited, very limited at times. I need to keep taking care of myself, keep nourishing myself. I already officially stopped purging in 2021. I and my body are still healing from the effects of those disorders.

as I said, I've become more comfortable wearing certain things, and I shouldn't be shamed for that. yes, I wear mini/tennis skirts, shorts, crop tops, bikinis, and things like that sometimes. I rarely ever wear short skirts/dresses out into public, though, and I also don't wear leggings as pants out in public. again, I always make sure that I'm properly covered. I wear undershorts with skirts, dresses, loose shorts, etc.

I see wearing certain things in my content as different from wearing them out in public. in my content, I can control what shows, I can control the angles, I can edit/crop, etc. in public, there might be a breeze, I might need to sit down or move around. I've already talked in some of my content about not feeling comfortable wearing leggings as pants out in public, I'll wear shorts over leggings, or wear leggings along with a dress or a skirt - I need to feel covered. I've basically also talked about not really feeling comfortable wearing mini skirts out in public, I tend to keep checking that they're laying right and to keep adjusting them and/or holding them down at times (like when it's windy/breezy or in general).

I can dress fire and be modest at the same time. I wear what I want, my clothing choices don't define my character. I dress for myself and my husband. I like to wear what I think is cute, pretty, dainty, delicate, ethereal, fancy, fire, cool, comfortable, etc. my body is art, my body is a temple, my body is my friend. my body is a body, it's natural, it's a natural thing. my body is beautiful.

"your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in [the creators'] sight." - 1 Peter 3:3-4

 

"I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship [the creators]." - 1 Timothy 2:9-10

 

 I personally choose to view these scriptures as not necessarily saying that it's wrong to wear those things, jewelry, expensive clothes, braided hair, etc., but as talking about one's character and conduct. and I do also hope that was the actual intent/meaning of them.

"for there is no respect of persons with [the creator]. for as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law: and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law; (for not the hearers of the law are just before [the creators], but the doers of the law shall be justified." - Romans 2:11-13

 

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of [the creators], and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by [the messiah]." - Romans 3:23-24

 

"no respect of persons" basically = "everyone is equal".

"the wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. in the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife." - 1 Corinthians 7:4

 

sending love and hugs to my younger self

sending love and hugs to my younger self who internalized

negative messages about her body and about femininity.

I love my body, I love being a woman, I love feeling feminine.

my body is a temple, my body is sacred, my body is art.

feminine, masculine, androgynous.

equal and differing and combined.

there is a balance, a variety,

they are natural and subjective.

my body is part of me, my womanhood is part of me, femininity is part of me,

and there are so many more "aspects" and "energies" of me.

photos of me taken by my husband, 2022.

misunderstandings & things I wasn't able to explain (discusses mental health, eating disorders, trauma, etc.).

there are multiple cases like this where, in certain situations, I wasn't able to say/explain something (like when you don't or "can't" say/explain something due to anxiety/fear/etc.), and I still think about it sometimes. I've thought about posting something like this here and there for a while. I'll be discussing (venting about) some such times here.

one time, when I was a kid, I was around a group of kids, and they were talking about what to play, mentioning playing "bop-it", and one of them was saying that I probably didn't even know how to play. I hadn't played it before, but it was really obvious how it worked and how to play it, so, of course, I knew what the right thing to press was when the kid held the game out to me, but I purposely pushed the wrong thing. maybe I might've rolled my eyes and/or maybe sighed or something? but I just reached out and pushed the wrong thing, and the kid was like "see?", I believe. I could've just pressed the right thing, but it was annoying to be treated like that, and I think that I just wanted to get the situation over with.

one time years later, as a teenager, when I was in the hospital for eating disorder reasons, a paper that I had been "tracking" some of my personal stuff on was found. it was claimed that it was found on the floor / under the bed, but I'm not totally sure if that was true. I'd heard people working at that hospital talking about going through my stuff, including a possible phone (I just had my ds), so they could've gone through my things and found the paper hidden there. the evil psychiatrist was being horrible about the paper and the fact that I'd been keeping track, and was asking me if that's all that I was "allowing myself" to eat. I was just keeping track of the amount that I was eating, and I'd literally heard from a nurse who was working there a while before this situation that that same evil psychiatrist planned for me to eat a certain amount of calories (per day), and at the point of that confrontation, I'd been eating around that amount. imagine if they'd actually tried diagnosing any other mental struggles (such as the ocd that I've dealt with since childhood), then they would've realized that it was compulsive. but would it really have changed how they treated me that much? who knows? also, I hadn't even been tracking right before the rude drama that they started.

another time, in hospital for edo reasons, I was asked if I was counting calories in my notebook, and I put my hand on my notebook to prevent it being looked (snooped) through. I wasn't able to say that I *had been* calorie counting, but that I had stopped. again, I compulsively tracked things (and I still do at times to this day, just not calories for a while now).

another situation at that hospital (which I think might've been part of the last situation, actually), involved when I'd asked my mom to bring a journal (a black-and-white composition notebook) to the hospital for me. this notebook was actually an "intake/output diary" where I tracked food, drink, fasting, calories, exercise, etc. my mom brought it to the hospital and questioned someone / people there about it. they looked through my journal. it was brought up to me (I believe in association with the last situation), and they said incorrect info about one of the days' entries. they claimed that one day that I'd tracked, all I'd eaten was like 1/4 of a bell pepper that I roasted. as I mentioned, incorrect. that was not all I'd eaten that day. I'd actually ended up binging that day. but I didn't really talk about binging, let alone in the sense of actually having done so. the subject of binging was discussed at some point, but moreso in the sense of it being normal to sometimes eat a lot, such as in social situations, although that's not necessarily a binge (and the idea of what a "binge" is can differ from person to person and can change over time). although I dealt with both anorexia and bulimia, I didn't talk about binging, and I didn't talk about purging (until the second stay at that hospital, which was even more hostile, and said that I'd been purging like every day since leaving the first time, and I think it still wasn't really discussed much after that). I didn't purge in the hospital, but I did get sick at one point, and the other end of the feeding tube in my nose / down my throat ended up coming out of my mouth. someone assumed that I pulled it out, but someone else told them that I didn't, that I'd thrown up (which, again, was not on purpose). I also didn't talk about purging in outpatient until after I'd graduated from the program and was going to follow-up meetings -- then I basically talked about feeling like I couldn't stop. it did eventually become more rare, sometimes increasing and decreasing in frequency, but didn't actually completely stop -- until eventually ... I actually just recently went over a whole year without purging. it's been around 15-16 months now (it's currently the 28th of January 2023, I stopped in late 2021). and I haven't really restricted to lose weight in quite a while, either.

another time, years later, was when I was discussing 2 different topics:

ONE, intermittent fasting / "trying to do IF" (which I had already been doing for a while before the conversation -- I also have a post about IF on this blog, I'll link it here). I was told "it's not that good", but what I meant was that I was trying to do IF AGAIN, and my personal experience was that I'd found intermittent fasting to be helpful/beneficial. I'd already been doing intermittent fasting for around 6 months and then hadn't really been doing IF anymore for a li'l while before the conversation, and I was trying to do intermittent fasting AGAIN.

and, TWO, feeling like turmeric might/would stain my teeth yellow. I was told that it "wouldn't", but I was speaking from personal experience -- I know that turmeric is used for brightening skin and whitening teeth, and I already knew this before the conversation and had previously done homemade turmeric masks (and maybe I might've also tried turmeric teeth whitening, too? maybe not, I'm not totally sure) as well as cooking with turmeric (I actually use this spice in cooking super regularly), but I still think there's a chance of teeth yellowing/staining with turmeric to whatever extent, from my personal experience. when doing turmeric masks, it did stain my skin kind of yellowy/orange-ey, even if only temporarily, and I felt and still feel like it could've contributed to some yellowish appearance of my teeth. by the way, a quick Internet search of this topic would show that it can and does indeed stain teeth over time and other things. as my personal experience and suppositions show.

"Turmeric Spice

The bold deep yellow pigments in this spice can turn your teeth just as yellow over time. Turmeric can also stain anything it touches, so be careful when using it."